“today’s a new day!” i announce, right before i bury my head in my knees and start sobbing
Depression Part 2 by Hyperbole and a Half is the most important thing you’ll read all day.
being bipolar is like being on a roller coaster ride at full speed, and then all of a sudden it comes to a screeching halt and nobody knows why, nobody understands, and you’re stuck there for days and everyone is trying to get you down but they can’t. and sometimes they get angry that they can’t, or sad that they can’t. or sometimes, they just don’t care.
but eventually the roller coaster starts moving again. faster and faster, so fast you can feel the mania surging through your body.
and then it comes to a halt again, and it repeats.
every day. every week. every month. it never stops.
i wish i could temporarily inflict my illness on every person who says, “omg, i’m so bipolar today XD” and show them what it really feels like to be bipolar
it doesn’t make you quirky, or interesting
whether you’re ~*~*manic*~*~ or depressed and in my case it is usually depressed! it makes you feel like you’re going fucking crazy 24/7
why does depression make the simplest things so fucking difficult
it took me three days to finish the latest episode of ef
i have so many series downloaded that i genuinely want to start but i open them and two seconds later say “i can’t do this” and close them
it’s the same with video games
and these seem like such small things but they’re things i used to enjoy so it’s like
what do i even do
i spend so much time just staring into space because doing anything else is so taxing
Depression Quest is an interactive fiction game where you play as someone living with depression. You are given a series of everyday life events and have to attempt to manage your illness, relationships, job, and possible treatment. This game aims to show other sufferers of depression that they are not alone in their feelings, and to illustrate to people who may not understand the illness the depths of what it can do to people.
I’m playing this right now, and as someone that’s currently working through dealing with depression this is a very accurate representation of how I’ve felt and some scenarios I’ve been in. The goal of the game is to raise awareness of depression and how it affects people, so if you or friends/family suffer from depression I highly suggest playing this. It really gives you an idea of why those with depression act as they do, and that it’s not always by choice.
It covers things like people saying “just go out with people more, you’ll feel better”, or “just work harder and push through” and other common things that are said to people with depression.