the really good dreams are the worst ones. i don’t know if this has ever happened to you but i’ve dreamed i was with people—those i know online, strangers, celebrities, whatever—and the joy was so intense. waking up from that…horrible.
that’s exactly what i dreamed about last night, actually. and then when you wake up and realize that not only was it not real but it isn’t going to happen anyway, that that happiness is never going to be real, you have this physically painful crushing feeling in your chest that doesn’t go away.
this is overdramatic as fuck but when you wake up from a nightmare, at least you’re waking up to the realization that none of it was real, as shaken up as you are. when you wake up from a dream like that, though, it’s the exact opposite — sometimes it’s like you are waking up into a nightmare.
way worse than having a horrible nightmare is having a dream where everything is okay and waking up to remember that it isn’t.